I'm sorry I write so much about my failures. So, for once I will tell you: when I stopped caring, I had more success than ever. Every time I cared about something, something would happen that would prevent me from getting what I cared about. I kept trying to force the universe to bend 13 billion years of effort into my meager effort. For a long time I cared too much. What he thought. What she thought. Why didn't they like me? Who would I have to beg next in order to "advance". Both you and me, we'll be dead before the universe blinks. So I totally gave up. I surrendered. Every day, I wake up and surrender first thing.  http://9nl.es/a23q …see more